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Hari ini saya googling sesuatu

"How to commit suicide painlessly" adalah kalimat pertama yang saya google pagi ini. Entah apa yang terlintas di kepala saya pagi ini. Saya bangun tidur, buka laptop, buka tab incognito di Chrome dan mengetik hal tersebut. Tidak berharap mendapat jawaban apa-apa juga.

Yang keluar adalah website Quora. Dan saya baru tahu, banyak yang bertanya pertanyaan yang sama. Entah apa tujuan penulisnya bertanya hal tersebut, mungkin memang ingin mengakhiri hidup, mungkin hanya bercanda, mungkin bisa jadi ingin meminta tolong. Tidak penting apapun alasannya, saya hanya merasa relate saja.

Lalu sayapun membaca jawaban-jawaban atas pertanyaan di Quora tersebut. Dan pagi ini saya menangis.

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  1. Rudi Chandra27 Oktober 2020 pukul 03.17

    Mungkin karena merasa hidup terlalu berat untuk dilanjutkan, tapi saya berharap mereka tidak benar-benar mengakhiri hidup, karena bisa saja hal baik yang datang di detik selanjutnya.

    BalasHapus

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